An ​Interrupted Life 1 csillagozás

The Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum 1941-43
Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life

July ​1942: I catch myself making all sorts of minor but telling adjustments in anticipation of life in a labour camp. Last night when I was walking along the quay beside him in a pair of comfortable sandals, I suddenly thought, 'I shall take these sandals along as well, I can wear them instead of the heavier shoes from time to time. What goes on in my head at moments like that…? Later, when I have survived it all, I shall write stories about these times… I shall wield this slender fountain pen as if it were a hammer, and my works will have to be so many hammer strokes with which to beat out the story of our fate and of a piece of history as it is and never was before… a few people must survive, if only to be chroniclers of this age. I would very much like to become one of their number.

Esther 'Etty' Hillesum, whose father was a headmaster, was born in 1914 in Holland, growing up in Deventer with two gifted brothers. After reading law, Russian and psychology at the… (tovább)

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Persephone, London, 1999
430 oldal · ISBN: 9780953478057 · Fordította: Arnold J. Pomerans

Enciklopédia 9


Kiemelt értékelések

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Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life

Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life The Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum 1941-43

(Hogy lehet egy naplót értékelni?)

Nagyon sok minden kavarog a fejemben.

A keresztelőmre kaptam ezt a könyvet, és angol anyukám sietett hozzátenni, hogy higgyem el, nem olyan nyomasztó, mint amilyennek első pillantásra tűnik. És tényleg nem. Sőt, az egyik leginspirálóbb könyv, amit valaha is olvastam, tele erővel, élni akarással, szeretettel és hittel, az utolsó pillanatig, pedig abban az utolsó pillanatban, vonatra szállva nem lehetett könnyű bármiben is hinni.

„You know, Etty is a person to me”, mondta még angol anyukám, és most már ezt is értem. Ez az a fajta napló, amitől olyan, mintha személyesen ismerném (ismertem volna) az íróját, és ha rossz kedvem van vagy úgy érzem, kiszúrt velem az élet, újabban ő szokott eszembe jutni. Valamelyik este, amikor hullafáradtan semmi kedvem nem volt fogat mosni, az jutott eszembe, hogy tulajdonképpen hálásnak kellene lennem, hogy egyáltalán megtehetem, ráadásul egy tiszta fürdőszobában, abban a tudatban, hogy pár perc múlva bebújok egy nagy, kényelmes ágyba egy jó meleg takaró alá. (még ha ez most rettenetesen közhelyesen is hangzik)

Bár ezt történetesen nem idézte, ahogy olvastam, egyre többször jutott eszembe a 23. zsoltár: Még ha a halál árnyékának völgyében járok is, nem félek a gonosztól… Van mit tanulnunk Ettytől. És nem csak azért, mert megörökítette a történelem egy szeletét.

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Népszerű idézetek

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I no longer believe that we can change anything in the world until we have first changed ourselves.

103. oldal, 19 February 1942. Thursday, 2:00 P.M. (Persephone Books, 1999)

Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life The Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum 1941-43

Kapcsolódó szócikkek: változás
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And God is not accountable to us for the senseless harm we cause one another.

184. oldal, Monday morning, ten o'clock (Persephone Books, 1999)

Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life The Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum 1941-43

Kapcsolódó szócikkek: Isten
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(…) you need courage to put that into words. The courage to speak God's name. S. once said to me that it took quite a long time before he dared to say 'God', without feeling that there was something ridiculous about it. Even though he was a believer.

91. oldal, Sunday morning (Persephone Books, 1999)

Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life The Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum 1941-43

Kapcsolódó szócikkek: hit · Isten
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Life is composed of tales waiting to be retold by me.

53. oldal, 4 September [1941], Thursday night, 10:30 (Persephone Books, 1999)

Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life The Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum 1941-43

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Oh God, take me into Your great hands and turn me into Your instrument, let me write.

39. oldal, 4 July [1941] (Persephone Books, 1999)

Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life The Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum 1941-43

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There is a really deep well inside me. And in it dwells God. Sometimes I am there, too. But more often stones and grit block the well, and God is buried beneath. Then He must be dug out again.
I imagine that there are people who pray with their eyes turned heavenward. They seek God outside themselves. And there are those who bow their head and bury it in their hands. I think that these seek God inside.

53. oldal, 26 August, Tuesday evening (Persephone Books, 1999)

Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life The Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum 1941-43

Kapcsolódó szócikkek: ima · Isten
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I can't help feeling that every hotley championed philosophy hides a little lie. That is must fall short of 'the truth'. And yet I myself will have to find a philosophy to live by, a fenced-in space of my own, violently siezed and passionately defended. But then wouldn't that be giving life short change?

82. oldal, Sunday morning, 10:30 (Persephone Books, 1999)

Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life The Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum 1941-43

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We should be willing to act as a balm for all wounds.

282. oldal, Early next morning [Tuesday, 13 October 1942] (Persephone Books, 1999)

Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life The Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum 1941-43

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Thinking gets you nowhere. It may be a fine and noble aid in academic studies, but you can't think your way out of emotional difficulties. That takes something altogether different. You have to make yourself passive then, and just listen. Re-establish contact with a slice of eternity.

56. oldal, Friday morning, nine o'clock (Persephone Books, 1999)

Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life The Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum 1941-43

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It is like the final, liberating scream that always sticks bashfully in your throat when you make love. (…) I am blessed enough intellectually to be able to fathom most subjects, to express myself clearly on most things; I seem to be a match for most of life's problems, and yet deep down something like a tightly wound ball of twine binds me relentlessly, and at times I am nothing more or less than a miserable, frightened creature, despite the clarity with which I can express myself.

3. oldal, Sunday, 3 March [1941] (Persephone Books, 1999)

Etty Hillesum: An Interrupted Life The Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum 1941-43


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