— Jealousy isn’t a personality flaw. It points out what your unmet needs are. So what are your unmet needs with Vash?
— Getting attention.
— So tell him you want more attention!
— But what if he doesn’t want to give me more attention?
— Then you give it to yourself.
— Why did you do that??
— Vash sent me an email and I don’t want to read it.
— What are you talking about? You like him.
— That’s the problem. I like him way too much.
— Is that even possible?
— Well it isn’t the liking that’s the problem. I’ll become attached.
— You’re always describing yourself as someone who loves without attachment.
— My emotions are sometimes inconsistent with my ideals.
— Oh look, he’s calling you.
— Listen, you are free to be as insecure as you want, but can you please stop breaking the electronics?
— I don’t know what jealousy means for other people but I’ve been sitting with mine and I realized what it is for me. At first I thought it was cause by you neglecting my heart, but then I noticed it was me neglecting my heart.
When I was a kid, I felf like I didn’t have anyone to talk to a out some really difficult things going on in my life. I didn’t even know how to start. But I loved drawing, so I started making secret comics depicting my difficulties and how I felt about them. (…)
Just by drawing the upsetting event, I was creating a visual representation of my thoughts, which allowed me to both express my emotions and be my own witness for them. I felt heard, even though I was the only one doing the listening.
If you feel insecure about your artistic abilities, start out by taking a piece of paper and covering it in messy scribbles to remind yourself what art even is.
It doens’t matter what it looks like. You’re drawing for you, not for someone else. And if there’s a someone else who would tell you you’re doing it wrong, we can draw that person with a weird scribble face to get our horrible artistic revenge.
— Yeah?? Who’s the bad artist NOW, scribbleface?